Voodoo (If I lose You I lose You)
Mateo Lara
After the song ‘Orbit’ by Nao

  	Gravitate	give	me	blood	eat	ripe	fruit
  	pero	I’m	not	ripe	yet	not 	enough		for 	you.

  	Told me root: burn it at the tip, lick the drippings, I’ll wait for you
  	all glittery in my best underwear, don’t kill me tonight, take me down
  	eat it up, give me what you want, I’ll wait in front of the hotel
  	dignity spilled & navigated twice over, I cannot eat my fill.

  	Kind	of	sad	that	you	remind		me 	of 	a 	love
  	I	once	knew	—	he 	released	me	into	orbit.

  	Don’t pay for anything—I cannot afford a light, a brown body just wants a trap
  	done right in its queer cycle, released into a comet, falling down into your
  	arms no longer, warm, but let’s stop for a moment and think about this
  	sharp-toothed, shark-toothed lover bite into a thick piece of offering.

  	I	 release	 I 	release 	you	I 	don't 	need	I don't need
        If I lose you	 I lose 	you	you	 can 	give	 me 	the 	voodoo

  	Now that’s what we like, spiral smoke trailing lungs, breathe it in
  	I just want relief, release from cracking bones, crackling fire in a stomach
  	gone cold turkey waiting months to be someone else I was not, this finger
  	touched you one last time, if you let go, what we know is just another ash-filled story

  	Rotating all around this world, another star dead & drifting through our memories.

  
Mateo Lara is originally from Bakersfield, California. He received his B.A. in English at CSU Bakersfield. He is currently working on his M.F.A. in Poetry at Randolph College in Lynchburg, VA. His poems have been featured in Orpheus, EOAGH, Empty Mirror, and The New Engagement. He is an editor for RabidOak online literary journal & Zoetic Press.